Honestly though. I've never been so excited to walk outside. Let everyone that's ever know me see how far I've gone. and then look at all of them and say, fuck you. See me right now? Yeah. YOU made me like this. This isn't your fault. I wasn't like this before! I'm not even sure what happened inside me. I feel half dead half insanely alive. I want to be HAPPY all the time, everyday, 24/7. Not happy like Disney World happy, but just normal happy. Like normal people. Like someone that doesn't cry themselves to sleep and throw up to calm themselves down, everynight. Like the someone I was 3 years ago. That normal little girl that didn't even know what the word dead meant.