everyone barley makes it, but there are miracles.

that twisty feeling in my stomach.
the room starts spinning and my head hurts.

my phones ringing and i can't manage to stand up straight. the walls are slowly coming together.
this moment comes over and over again everyday.
when i realize this is not what i want.

i want to go back to the way it was. i miss him. and i miss me. and i miss everyone from back then. i miss them. i miss those days. those days.


the moment when i remember how badly i want to let go of you.