all i can do is say i'm sorry, for who i've become. for what i've allowed. and for the disappointments i've caused. i've learned that what i'm treating this as is a victory. but no one here has won. we've killed ourselves to get here. i've been breaking my back to show you that i can. this is no longer what i wanted. i'm sick of being alone and i'm sick of wishing at 11:11 over and over. they never come true. and quiet frankly, never will. i know that. it just hurts me to know you're missing out. this is a cold and broken hallelujah. please forget me.