please be strong for me. i love you so much. i wish we could see eachother again, you mean so much to me. i wish we could swim together and run down the street. i wish i could go back. i wish i could come home. i can't apologize enough for not being there. i'm sorry that you lost him. your lives were all planned out. you are so beautiful and smart. he was a wonderful boy. darling, he loved you so much. and he still does. dont forget him.