Tuesday, August 10, 2010
this morning i woke up at about 4:30. suddenly. it was from a sharp pain in my back and echoing throughout my legs and chest. it kinda felt like someone walked through me. pulled my insides around and stepped out. the pain lasted until about twenty minutes ago. its 7:38 right now. its foggy. it rained last night, thunder and lighting. it was loud, but i was already awake when the stork started. i haven't slept more than 5 hours straight in the last few days. i'm so afraid to close my eyes for long. at first its wonderful, a dreamland of peace, and then as the tiredness of my body overtakes me, and my eyes won't open; its scary. i'm so scared, its like i'm alone kind of. i mean, i'm not. but without someone there to protect me. someone to fight the bad guys, kill the spiders and make me warm milk at 2:30am... i might as well be alone.