I'm trying so fucking hard to hold it all together.

I'm broken hearted and I'm sad. I'm stressed and I'm tired. I miss you.

I'm trying so fucking hard to slap a smile on my face.

I'm in love and I'm excited. I'm having fun and I'm happy. I don't miss you.

I hate this.

I love this.

I hate every single one of my "friends". Old friends that is. From previous years, boring "friends". "Friends" that talk shit and fake laugh. "Friends" that play hide and seek when I need them. "Friends" that stand next to you in the spotlight, but not in the darkness.


Friends that lie.


Friends that remind me of who I used to be.